A day in Twin Falls...

So.....not sure why everytime I upload these 2 pics, they keep flipping sideways, but oh well, I guess they'll stay that way...still cute though.

Shadows.

So....Gabe and I spent the day in Twin Falls. I love that town, and if I wasn't on such a time crunch, I'd type more about the trip, but until I get around to it, here's some highlights.

A cool waterfall pic

I really like this one, even if my face does look fat.

An abstract one.

Smoochies. :)

A cool pic Gabe took.

In front of the Twin Falls temple.

Playing in the water.

My hair was insane

A FREAKING AWESOME pic that Gabe took!

He is such a good photographer as well. I guess it helps that we're both photogenic....

Either way, it was a good time....and I miss him. :(

Some of my favorite pics...

It's been a while...

Gabe sitting at lunch

One of my favorites...his dimples are cute.

I love his face!

In the Kuna caves, at 3 in the morning.

A cheesy shot at karaoke.

...So, as for the crazy relationship junk....I'm pretty much stuck on Gabe.

He's great.

I wish you all could meet him....

but since you can't,

I'll just spam your computer with pictures of our happy gross-ness.

Lol.

So...I find myself in love....with 2 different people...both brothers....HELP!

So, I'm not sure how it happened, but it did.

Ben has been home for the last month, and his younger brother is now home from his mission, and somewhere in all of this, I fell for them both pretty hard...and for different reasons...

Well, I've always been nuts about Ben, that's a given, and he has been really sweet while he's been home, more than ever....and then there's Gabe, who I don't have 8 yrs of rocky times with, who picks up Ben's good qualities, but none of his bad ones...

Fortunately, Ben leaves on Sunday, so it might be easier to figure things out then....but....as of right now, I'm basically smitten with both....it stinks....I mean, on the plus note, I have two good looking, funny, super sweet guys who crave my attention, but on the downfall, I like them both...and this isn't going to work for too long...

So, here's some videos and pics, and you guys can decide.....ha ha

This is Ben and I singing "Lookin For a Good Time" by Lady Antebellum. We basically rock at this song. It was so much fun singing it with him, and it's these moments that make me love him more...which sucks....

And this one is of Gabe and I singing "Drive" by Incubus. He is so quiet though, so I kept trying to shove the microphone in his face so you could here him.

Here's Ben and I dancing...and now you can all see why I love it so much.

And here is my attempt at the "Penguin 2-step" with Gabe. He's a lot of fun to dance with and incredibly smooth, as you'll see in the video...and the ending is the best.

So, advice, suggestions, opinions, etc....

Right now, I'm stumped.

Pay It Forward

Pay it forward

I got this off of Christy's family blog and thought it would be a fun challenge.
So here we go!

Pay It Forward
…..So, here’s how it works:
the first 3 people to leave a comment on this post will receive, at some point during the year, some homemade goodies from me. What it will be and when it will arrive is a total surprise! The catch is that you must participate as well. Before you leave your comment, write up a pay it forward post on your blog to keep the fun going (or copy and paste like I did). Then come back, let me know you’re going to play and sit back and anticipate the arrival of your goodies! Please submit in an e-mail or on the comment, your address, if I don’t have it already. Remember that only the first 3 comments will receive a gift from me, so be quick! Have fun!

My two most hated holidays

Groundhog's day, and Valentine's Day.

Groundhog's day because when I was dating Ben Ashton for 5 yrs, and planned on marrying him, this was the day he dumped me, by saying he proposed to someone else, and figured "maybe" he should break up with me. JERK.

And Valentine's Day because, besides cards in Elementary School, I have never got a Valentine from a guy. I am always single for Valentine's Day, and I hate seeing everyone super happy and lovey dovey, and I hate shopping at stores to see pink plastered up and down the aisles, and I hate flowers getting delivered, singing Valentines delivered, I just despise all of it.

I conveniently get dumped before this holiday...I'm ALWAYS single during Valentine's Day, and it makes me sick. This year will be even better, the only person I'd want to spend it with will be spending it with someone else....better yet, he's be in town spending it with someone else....man, I wish he did go to Korea. This blows.

Advice

I got some good advice today, and I figured I needed to write it down before I forgot it.
So...here it is:

I was talking to my friend Jamie, and we got on the topic of the man who drives me insane, and this is how it went.

JAMIE:
that really sucks, he doesn't sound like a very good guy for you
you deserve someone who oogles over you, my dear

GINNY:
I know I do. sad thing is, when it's just me and him, he does...and then you get him around other people and he's a shape shifter....and I'm the idiot hoping he'll change...I just hope that I can move on, and when he's an idiot, his life falls apart, and he's depressed, I just hope I'm strong enough to not take him back....that'll be the hard part

it's just hard to walk away from 7 yrs of happy times....yeah, there have been bad ones too, but I wouldn't trade them in anyday, because when it comes to having that one person on my side, and the 3 am cry fests, and someone to pick me up when I'm at my lows, and someone who lets me be myself, Ben has always been number one.....which sucks...

JAMIE:
well then this all sounds self inflicted girly... other people are capable of providing that stuff for you too...

You just need to be brave enough to give someone else a chance to prove it

...A very profound and true statement...

GINNY:
yeah, but I'm the idiot that doesn't let them...because I always had Ben...yeah, I guess I'm just scared to give someone else that chance, because I'm afraid of being let down or forgotten, it happens quite frequently for me actually

JAMIE:
Me too, lower your expectations

...I'm not sure if "lower your expectations" is the best way to put that, but I do plan on changing them...I have to put faith back into people in general, which is hard because I have been hurt SO many times, I'm almost to the point of not trying anymore.

Like my recent catastrophe with Rob....but that's another story...